stand still
it’s easy when you try to be different just by wearing “weird” clothes or make up. many people do that, I guess…
but when it’s come in a matter of different life style or way of thinking or response in certain situation, would those people (still) want to be different?
many people don’t, I guess…
just random thinking
-tidur ah
belajar
gw kadang suka nyesel kalo dulu gw gak suka ngasal pake bahasa inggris. Karena sebenernya modal nekat itu penting buat belajar.
gw suka overthinking kalo pake bahasa inggris, ntar dibilang sok gaya padahal grammar salah2, kan malu. Padahal namanya juga belajar, pasti ada salah2nya.
nah, kadang gw mikir, orang indonesia suka gede malunya, jadi segan untuk mencoba. dari jaman tk gak pernah dibiasain buat ngacung trus nanya, kalo dikelas ada yang nanya dibilang cari perhatian guru, atau ”ih gitu aja ditanya”.
gara gara kebiasaan itu, gw suka paling diem dikelas, kalo lagi kuliah tapi…, kalo lagi gak kuliah gw berisik juga heuehuheu. gw kagak pernah ngacung trus nanya, kalo yang lain dikelas gw itu yak hal yang menurut gw kagak penting aja ditanya bo 
. yah simply karena memang mereka mau tau.prinsip mereka, mereka kagak ngerti mereka nanya. salut gw.
bahasa inggris juga gitu, awal awal gw suka kaga pede ama bahasa inggris gw, tapi ternyata mereka juga sama sama aja kayak gw (yah ada sih yg emang fluent), bedanya mereka asal nyeplos aja. mereka gak overthinking grammar salahlah, malulah, itu gw juga salut.
dan disini gw jadinya asal nyeplos aja, yah kalo gak asal ceplos gimana gw idup. .
tapi omong omong soal bahasa, karena disini dari macem macem negara, bahasa inggrisnya pun macem macem, dulu sempet males ngobrol karena gw loadingnya lama, apalagi ama orang afrika, suka nyerah gw… tapi lama lama gw belajar ngomong
“sorry… what?”
dan lama lama terbiasa.
pernah kejadian, temen sekelas gw orang mesir, kalo dia ngomong pasti gw kagak ngerti, pernah gw diskusi sama dia, dia jelasin trus pas selese dia nanya
“do you understand me?” gw jawab “no”
trus dia ulang lagi penjelasannya dia, trus dia tanya lagi” do u understand me?” gw jawab lagi “no”
trus dia masih bae jelasin lagi tapi tetep gw kagak ngerti dia ngomong apaaa .hakahakha.
akhirnya dia nyerah dan gw juga nyerah. gara gara itu, pernah gw nanya lagi ama dia soal kuliah, trus dia coba jelasin, trus dia tiba2 die diem trus bilang “u will not understand me i”ll just write it for u”. meuehuehueehuehu….
trus dia tulis deh penjelasannya.:D
tapi sekarang gw udah suka ngerti kalo dia ngomong kok. kekekekek…
intinya cuma mau bilang ke diri sendiri, kalo mau belajar jangan takut malu.
jiao…
like it :)
I like this post…I take it from here:
My daughter get’s it!
We were driving home from church a couple of months ago and I asked her this question, “Charisse, did you know that your daddy loves you?”
“Yes sir,” she replied.
“Well, do you know why I love you,” I asked.
“Because I’m your little girl,” she answered.
THEN I asked the BIG Question:
“Do you think daddy could ever stop loving you?”
“No sir,” she said.
“And why not,” I asked.
“Because I’m your little girl and I will always be your little girl!”
I smiled and thought, SHE’S GOT IT…she knows that my love for her is NOT based on her performance but rather her position as my daughter. Even though she will break some rules in the future and do some things that I am quite sure will grieve my heart…she will always be loved by me because she is mine.
I’ve told her on numerous occasions, “You can’t make me not love you!”
It’s funny though…even though I know this when it comes to me and my relationship with Charisse I sometimes struggle with it when it comes to my relationship with God. If I am not careful I will naturally drift into a performance mentality, actually believing He loves me because of how much time I spent reading my Bible, how many people responded to the sermon I preached or how well I fought the urge to sin…
And then during the times when I mess up, when I have a bad attitude, when I entertain a lustful thought…I begin the focus on who I am and think, “there’s no way He loves me, heck, I don’t even love me right now!”
But, what’s true about me and my daughter is true of me and my relationship with God (AND you too if you belong to Him!) That His love for us is not based on our performance but rather our position as His child.
The Apostle Paul said it best in Romans 8:38-39 where He said that NOTHING can separate us from God’s love! NOTHING! (And…if you will read those verses it’s a pretty extensive list!)
I believe it is essential for every believer in Christ to get this…because I am convinced that our lives would look so much different if we lived them out in the confidence that He loves us rather than the false idea that we’re somehow trying to earn His love.
God’s love is based on position, not performance…just felt like someone needed to hear that today.
hana wedding ^^
today eh yesterday deng…. my friend got married, so so happy for her…
ampe bingung kok gw happy bener liat poto2 kawinannya. Gw selalu sentimentil liat kawinan nih ahuhauheu…
I dont want to live on the moon
falling in love with this song, haukhaukhauk…, kalo lagi rindu indo nyanyi ini kenceng kenceng… ;D
sangat menggambarkan suara hati :p
Oh, I’d like to visit the moon
in a rocketship high in the air.
Yes, I’d like to visit the moon,
but I don’t think I’d like to live there.
Though I’d like to look down at the earth from above,
I would miss all the places and people I love.
So although I may like it for one afternoon,
I don’t want to live on the moon.
Or I could travel under the sea.
I could meet all the fish everywhere.
Yes, I’d travel under the sea,
but I don’t think I’d like to live there.
Though I’d stay for a day there if I had my wish.
But there’s not much to do when you’re friends are all fish.
And an oyster and clam aren’t real family, so I don’t want to live in the sea.
I’d like to go to the jungle, hear the lions roar.
Go back in time and meet a dinosaur.
There’s so many strange places that I’d like to be.
But none of them permanantly.
So if I should visit the moon,
well I’ll dance on a moonbeam and then
I will make a wish on a star
and wish I were home once again.
Though I’d like to look down at the earth from above,
I would miss all the faces of the people I love.
So although I may go I’ll be coming home soon.
‘Cause I don’t want to live on the moon.
No I don’t want to live on the moon.
awesome
gw tuh tipe orang yang suka everything is in control, walaupun bukan exactly a good planner, dalam banyak hal gw biasanya pasti udah nyusun rencana. Gw sering kalo baca atau nonton biasanya harus tau ceritanya dulu, malah sering liat bagian akhirnya dulu ketengah baru ke awal. semoga ini gak aneh.
Jadi gw ini tipe tipe suka sesuatu yang pasti, yang jelas…
but poor me,
life doesn’t work that way
dan gw sering merasa kesulitan untuk trust my life in his hands.
suka ngambek2 gak jelas sama Dia..
disuatu saat, i’m asking about life quetion again, maybe like a million times to Him…
and he ‘answered’ my questions with remind me through this moment:
dulu waktu gw masih kuliah di bandung, gw dapet satu gantungan kunci ini:
waktu liat gantungan kunci ini gw bilang,
” someday, somehow, i will see the real Eiffel”, cuma iseng sih, karena pengen kesana, tanpa motivasi, tanpa rencana, cuma pengen karena kebanyakan orang umumnya.
gantungan kuncinya gw pake di tas kuliah, biar bisa liat tiap hari, sampe akhirnya ilang… heuehue… (gw gitu)
then waktu kemaren jalan jalan keparis, liat gatungan kunci ituuhh…. jadi inget kata kata waktu dulu itu…
nah, kemaren gw diajak untuk inget lagi, untuk sadar lagi…
God has bring me this far, far beyond my imagination.
now I have many key chains from other places, not just from Eiffel, not just from the place I dream.
He try to show me through this little moments, that He is God that far beyond my imagination, He is a Big Big God…
and not just that, He is The God who loves me and cares for me,
Though I forgot about my dreams, no one heard or even care about it, but He was listening and working!
then…
just like that moment that has passed, so do my future…
he is now working at it far beyond my imagination!
future is always uncertain, so get used to it… hey me :p
but His promises is
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future., -jeremiah29:11
daann…
untuk orang orang yang macam gw, suka kuatir gak jelas,
God loves you and has awesome plans for you!
-happy sunday
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