pas terakhir jalan-jalan eh traning ke korea (dikutuk negara nanti gw), gw diajakin ke busan dan dengan senang hati menolak. minggu pertama disana udah jalan-jalan ke seoul dan enjoy sih… tapi cape dan seoul itu kota besar… kota… sejak kapan gw suka kota besar. jadi waktu diajakin ke busan, dan walaupun weekend waktu itu lampu mati, gw dengan lebih senang hati nyante di daejeon. waktu itu cuma jalan keliling kota Daejeon sama seorang teman.

ntah kenapa mungkin bukan musimnya lagi gw ga se excited itu buat ‘main-main’ atau ntah krn gw ga kenl2 amat ya ama mereka2 jadi males. diajak makan malam aja sering gw tolak… heueheuheu

soal koreanya sendiri gw rada stress soal bahasa, pengalaman susahnya jelasin alamat ke tukang taksi jam stgh 11 malam di musim gugur.

zzzz

belum lagi makanannya… bukan selera lidah gw banget

jadi compare sama belanda, hatiku tetap terpenjara di belanda ahauhauhau. tapi at least ga penasaran lagi sama korea, dan kehidupan orangnya2…  yang selalu sikat gigi, dikit2 sikat gigi… gimana mereka makan pete ya… sikat gigi pake kembang tujuh rupa mungkin.

oh iya kmrn ninggalin boots yang udah setia menemani kemana2… karena udah jelek juga sih dan takut kelebihan bagasi hauauhau… lagian waktu terkahir kali disimpen juga emang wishnya cuma sekali lagi dipake untuk ketemu musim gugur abis itu time to move on.

next trip kemana ya….

kayaknya ada yang ngidam kejepang sih 🙂

being a minority

Sometimes i think that Im used to be a minority. I was born in karonese family (a tribe that maybe many people in indonesia never heard before, even dont know that we are exist)  and my religion is catholic (in my id at least). This fact is a double duo of minority because I grew up in java island where people are mostly moslem. In the time where we as a human learned how to fit in, I felt i didnt fit in so many area. And it’s not just stop in my childhood moment, being ‘the only one’ is happened to me in so many conditions. The only girl in the field, the only single person, the only Indonesian, the only christian, etc.

but in those many experiences i learnt that it’s okay. yes it’s hard to be different. but it’s always gonna be okay. even it benefit me in someway, I know the pressure to be ‘the only one’ and because i know the pressure, i realize that so many people in indonesia doesn’t really aware that we need to tolerate with each other, we need to respect the minority.  And it’s because we never experience become ‘the only one’, dont know how it feels to be rejected. Many people feel sorry when see social experience video of women using hijab in western country, but dont we also do the same mistake? somehow we reject each other in so many ways that we even never realize before. The simplest example is by talking in local language where there is someone who doesnt understand at all. oh pleassseee…. dont do that! it’s pretty suck moment become that one person right? can you imagine that is the fact of someone’s life

that’s why in the future i will teach my children to be kind with any human being, to respect others, to feel their shoes before act. And hope that Indonesia can be more mature facing diversity.

 

 

wedding stuff

61 days to go before my wedding day, finally i talk about wedding heeuhueheu…

i’m a simple person when it comes for choosing food, clothes, etc and it also works for my dream wedding.

Everyone has a dream wedding, right?

and my dream wedding is as simple as it can be, it’s one my the most important day in my life, i want to enjoy it and savor each seconds. i want to be as comfortable as possible. be the people i loved and care the most, just close family and friends with round table and beautiful outdoor venue. where people can eat, laugh and chit chat happily, where people can truly celebrate the new chapter in my life. just simple make up to make me pretty and simple hair do and dress just to make me like princess 🙂

lucky me i was born in kind of pretty cultural family and also will be married one with kind of the same background family. so my dream wedding will be just a dream.

I can understand wedding is not just my and his celebration but also our whole family celebration, but for me it’s quite hard for me to let go my wedding dream because

it’s still my wedding.

hiks hiks…

so if anyone will face the same case, your not alone hauahuaha… actually i cried quiet alot and it took days or even months for me to finally accept it . huft…

for my wedding, i dont want to think too much about the detail of my dress, the detail of my make up, the detail of my shoes, the detail of everything, it doesnt mean that im not thinking about it but i dont wanna do it too much so it steals my joy.

i just wanna enjoy this moment of my life

🙂

 

 

 

sleep tight

sometimes anxiety eats you up, and for me the only way to beat it is to deal with it.

to tell all the lies that they are just lies.

 

I lift up my eyes to the mountains– where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth -david

Hero

Let me go
I don’t wanna be your hero
I don’t wanna be a big man
Just wanna fight like everyone else1

Your masquerade
I don’t wanna be a part of your parade
Everyone deserves a chance to
Walk with everyone else

While holding down
A job to keep my girl around
And maybe buy me some new strings
And her and I out on the weekend

And we can whisper things
Secrets from my American dreams
Baby needs some protection
But I’m a kid like everyone else

So let me go
I don’t wanna be your hero
I don’t wanna be a big man
I just wanna fight like everyone else1

Ooh
Ooh

So let me go
I don’t wanna be your hero
I don’t wanna be a big man
I just wanna fight with everyone else1

Your masquerade
I don’t wanna be a part of your parade
Everyone deserves a chance to
Walk with everyone else

-family of the year

2016

everyone on this earth is struglling with something and sometimes we may think that we struggle way more than the other. And yes, thats might be true but remember no one in this world is always happy.

100% pure of happy heart.

Happy is overated. Happy is so fragile, dont pursue her. We can be happy in the morning but angry at the afternoon and sad at night. But that’s life…

life will turn you upside down, you are going to be miserable, sad, hurted but that doesnt mean that your life is suck. thats just life, everyone feel the same. You just need to be at peace with it.

and you will meet the happiness

2016, I welcome you

🙂